I had this terrible dream. It was fine, until I kept hitting snooze, and then it just started going bad. I was in college again, my roommate seemed to be a girl from my current dance class. I played rugby (I did) and I was really good (I wasn't bad) and the coach (looks like jesus) wanted to talk to me because I was sooooo good at tackling/hitting. I said "I have a lot of hidden aggression". He had no response. Unfortunately some girls from the other rugby team were really pissed that they kept losing and wanted to out me. They basically tried to jump me in the shower but I kicked there ass to the point where they ran off but then they turned all the men against me (that actually did happen but for other reasons). Just the way they looked at me really hurt. Hate, hate for no reason or fault of my own.
Well, what do people do when the hate you and want to hurt you? They take what matters most to you. They took my daughter. This 7 foot man lured my daughter to his place by saying he was lost and needed help finding his apartment. She showed him where it was and he pulled her in and she said she shouldn't go with strangers, but he said "you already did" and chained her up with swing set chain around her soft beautiful wrists and I couldn't get to her.. and then I woke up.
Playing rugby was a lot like being in a frat or sorority I think. Only co-ed. There was hazing (dubbing) and a lot of things were just mean, I wasn't interested in that part. I did my best not to treat anyone with disrespect, although I think I got a lot for it. It was the best of times, it was the worst of times. Some of the players married each other. Feels a little like the couples from HS that married. What? Really? Move on. I wonder if those who were unkind to others ever regretted it? Somehow I doubt it. It's funny, strange, and sad how young people can deserately seek the approval of peers that treat them with hate and disrespect. Sad..but not new and never ending.