HATER-ATER
So I saw this girl that looked like someone I knew, someone I pretty much despise and wondered why I felt this way. This person had never spoken badly of me, never done anything despicable, yet I feel I must despise her. Really? Hate her? Nah, I will admit I am just plain jealous of this girl. She's pretty , she's thin, she's from money (hard one to change about oneself) she's popular and she goes places I've never been. Everyone likes her. Actually, I honestly don't know much about her other than that. Yet, my green-ness has led to a general annoyance, and then an utter disposition. Seeing anyone that looks remotely like her brings these feelings to the surface. Why, I wonder, would you pull negative feelings from something that is basically positive? Is there a thin line between admiration and hate? No, i've decided, not a line, a chromosome. Had this girl been born male i'd probably actually really LIKE him. I mean, again, there's nothing this person has actually done to make me haterate, so I'd probably admire him very much. Ack, that's just sadly strange and true. I, as a double X carrying chromosome admire in males many qualities that would make me seeth with jealously in females. Well, I suppose that must be some sort of evolutionary thing where in the 'wild' it may be in best interest to toss her off a cliff as to make my situation and chance of offspring a little better with the alpha males.
I think they frown on the cliff tossing these days though...